So who is he?

They took my son Kartik and still my heart is beating! My laughter still rings out heartlessly at a joke or a humorous situation, what is it that keeps me alive? Not once, but twice over with Dhananjay too and still I live!!! Who is this person who is so strong, though my heart feels so weak with worry??
Who is this fellow who assures me that God will look after them, and with such amused and clinical detachment , whilst I pop pills to still my worries? Who is he ? Why does he keep reminding me "Bash on regardless" why does he remind me of Kipling's "If" ;of the verses on the Gita that say"yield not to unmanliness"; who is he?
Why does he smile as I try to distract myself with a search for a reason to exist, why does he keep me from suicide? Why do I struggle to exist, when every organ in me is failing, who is he that urges me on? Is he my friend or foe? My benefactor or tyrant? My survival or my death?
He knows my every emotion, my every weakness , my every foible and yet why is he my companion? Who is this raconteur of my tale who spells it out , glories and shames alike?
Merciless, there is no love , no hate , just an existence, emotionless, devoid of the throes of feeling, yet he torments me with my failings and exults in my glories... Who is he?

Religion , Power and Sex

I have often wondered how much of religion is about power and sex. I am now convinced that most of it is. The anti abortion lobbies across all religions is about priests , largely male ,wanting to control women by controlling their right to reproduce, supported by a patriachal society where males wish to control women, because of their fears of losing their women to a younger more virile male. Simple as that, no more rubbish. Period. Amen.
Popes, Archbishops, Cardinals, Mullahs ,Imams, Pundits, Namboodiris all have been known to exploit women for sex, this is recorded history and I often wonder how women let themselves get cheated by religion , again and again and again!!!!
No bigger mind game ever existed in history, yet every religion has this barnyard of cows who tamely get brainwashed, and in a pathetic manner seek to enlarge the herd by serving as poster girls for the benefits of religion.
Even today, about 25 % of married priests in the Anglican Church indulge in extramarital affairs , by their own admission. I am sure that other religions would exceed this percentage by far.
When will we humans lose our fears and move on? Wasn't religion supposed to give us spiritual courage?Instead it seems to foment our fears so it can cheat money out of us, and then use that money for feeding on all that is good in Society and corrupting it with its foul dogmas and so-called miracles???!!!
Let us link our emotions to Reason and let its clear light guide us , as this is what really comes from God, not the nonsense some vicious fanatic feeds us. A truly godly person need not evangelise, you would follow him by being inspired by his example , not some fatuous speeches. Only if you can trust yourself to be able to discern this , can you consider yourself human, else you are part of the priests barnyard. Isn't it amazing how many priests try to catch you when you are at a psychological low, strip you of your self esteem with moral judgements purporting to come from God, so he or she may exercise POWER over you . How often have you heard them say "This is what God wants" as if they are constantly getting emails from God about you! Enough !!! Call an end to this madness and tell the priests where to get off. It is all about Power and Sex , not about God.

Of Men and Women

First let me apologise to anybody who did read my previous post for that intemperate and negative post. What I'd like to do now is to examine how the relationships between men and women have changed, not from the status point of view, where the move to equality is very laudable.
Let us look at the Quality of the relationships, from the point of view of adult-adult relationships from the Transactional Analysis point of view. In my opinion, where there was trust in the past now there is a greater degree of distrust. Men who succeed are suspicious of women as they do not know if the woman is marrying them, or the lifestyle that comes with their station in life. Women are suspicious of men dumping them for a trophy wife, very often after supporting a partner through either University or even the early part of their career.
With the result that we have a mish-mash of short term relationships, with neither men or women or the resultant offspring secure or happy in the relationships that exist. Okay , Okay I know that this is an oversimplification, but when one analyses the various experiences of our friends and acquaintances, and strip them of individual nuance, then this trend of underlying factors seem to emerge, or perhaps we shall say, be accepted as probable cause.
And another trend seems to emerge that we humans get more accepting of our partners "clay feet" with age/maturity..

Looking at the horizon

There is something that looking at the horizon does for me, it sort of gives me perspective- that sort of , hey you know, you are not the centre of the universe kind of stuff!!
Very useful when you want to deal with problem... gives me that , hey there's a whole new world that you dont know about , a place to go to, from the nasty here and now. A promise of hope. Guess that why I like Astronomy, so much, to know we can go somewhere, after we have infested the earth.
Wonder if cockroaches feel the same way!